Yoga teacher Amy Devi leads regular donation classes at Yoga Pod LoDo, one of our founding 108 Partner Studios, to support our shared mission of bringing yoga to the underserved. She also inspires her students to explore the joy of service themselves by teaching our “How Can I Serve?” training module as part of Yoga Pod’s Seva Teacher Training. For Amy, giving back is part of her daily life. We asked her to tell us what inspires her service, and how it’s shaped her personal and professional life.
For a long time, the idea of giving back and serving made me feel guilty, and like I had to pay for the privileges I’ve had during my life. Magically, connecting to myself with a committed yoga practice, I realized service was not about ME and instead was about WE.
When it hit me that service is about connection and being with others, I realized how much I actually enjoy giving back. Whether I’m serving someone who had the courage to show up at the Yoga studio for the first time, or I’m serving my neighbors by bringing in their trash can, service has become a way of being for me. My mantra when I’m working with my coaching and consulting clients is “Who/how can I serve?” AND sometimes service means letting someone do something nice for you.
The more I get to know Give Back Yoga and their team, the more inspired and connected I feel. I have had the honor of teaching two public donation classes for Give Back Yoga, and am always awed by the community who shows up at these events. I make sure all of my amazon.com purchases are made through smile.amazon.com, and that a percentage goes to the Give Back Yoga Foundation.
I get to teach the How Can I Serve? module at Yoga Pod Yoga Teacher Trainings. My favorite part about it is watching the eyes of the new teachers light up when they too realize service isn’t about fixing things or guilt…it’s incredible how many ideas we come up with for how to serve. Actually most of us, in our dharma, in our natural most aligned state, are here to serve one another in one capacity or another. Whether it’s teaching free classes at a women’s safe house, or making delicious lattes, we all thrive when we serve one another.
— Amy Devi Harris, ERYT, MSS
Yoga, Writing, and 12-Step for Healing Addiction
Before and throughout my journey of sobriety, I have struggled with a voracious desire to be someone else. Someone savvier, someone less afraid.
When I arrived in substance abuse treatment as a teenage girl, my theater background intact, I passed over the subtle value of self-awareness and went straight for the stage. I received awards and privileges. I gave eloquent answers in therapy. With a few quick gear shifts, the performance required to stay high became the performance to appear sane.
A few weeks after arriving in treatment, the chaos that brought me there began to feel like a distant dream. I didn’t feel anything like the girl who had busted her head open on the street while being searched by a cop, spending the night in the emergency room, telling anyone who would listen that she was completely fine. I didn’t recognize this girl, and the more time that passed, the less I believed in her existence.
But just outside of my nuanced, inpatient confusions, an unchanged truth awaited me: I would risk everything to get high. This was revealed to me with relentless repetition. The most painful example being my first break from treatment where within 24 hours, I was unconscious on my mother’s doorstep.
I returned to treatment devastated and hollow. I had no idea what happened. When I think about these weeks, what I remember is being the kind of empty where nothing echoes on the inside, no matter how much noise I made.
It was at this time that I began working with a new counselor. Somehow, she saw past my wisdom lies. It was she who handed me Rumi’s poem “The Guest House.” I remember standing outside her office, struck by the first lines:
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
This same counselor assigned me to a period of silence, with the exception of our meetings. In this space, she invited me to notice what I enjoyed doing versus what I thought I should do. (I was a bit blurry on that distinction.)
It was during this first stretch of silence that I started to write whatever came to mind. Sometimes I wrote until my hand hurt. No single part of me had to be the best part, or the right part or have the final say. Gradually, different voices started rattling the page.
Writing has always held an electricity for me. But what I found, at this point in my life, was that rather than surrendering unconsciously to alcohol and drugs, writing allowed me to surrender in a way that made me feel clearer and brighter.
No counselor, teacher or parent read what I wrote and more often than not, neither did I. I was looking for a place out of the reach of analysis. A place for my confusion to go where it could breathe and be left alone. Just a place where I could simply stay.
I would love to tell you that after leaving residential treatment I stayed sober, but that is not my story. I continued to live in a cycle of addiction and its increasingly sad and frightening consequences until I returned to the Twelve Step program, when I was 18. And since that day, with varying degrees of enthusiasm, willingness and love, I have simply stayed.
In my first year of sobriety, I started going to yoga classes with the same raw need that I brought to Twelve Step meetings. I would often lay in Shavasana and feel tears slide down my face. My yoga instructor never approached me directly about these tears. Sometimes, she would place her palms underneath my upper back and invite my chest to relax into her hands. Then she would simply stay.
Today, when faced with great pain or bewilderment, the most useful thing for me to remember about my mind is that it is also a body and a heart and a set of lungs. When I pick up the pen or go to the mat, I release truths that cannot be held solely by my brain.
The practice of Yoga, the process of free writing, and the program of the Twelve Steps have become three vital ropes in my life-line. Though each one compliments and allows for the other, when braided together, it is these practices of surrender that hold me in my present life.
Lilly Bechtel is a certified Kripalu and Trauma-Sensitive Yoga instructor, freelance journalist and poet. Her writing has appeared in “USA Today,” “The Brooklyn Rail” and “The Huffington Post,” among others. Ms. Bechtel is currently working on a book about the role of mindfulness in addressing Post Traumatic Stress in the military, to be published through the Give Back Yoga Foundation. Follow Lilly’s work and writing through Body Song Yoga on Facebook and Tumblr.
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